You never know what will set you off.

For me it was listening to a morning drive-in show where the topic of discussion was, “If you weren’t gay, would it be better to kiss your dad or a friend?”  I felt sick, anxious, and started to breathe out of control until I turned off the radio, put on my ipod and listened to my new fave song, “Courage” by Vieux Farka Touré. I wish I could understand all the words, but I get the impression that it’s about being brave, not being afraid of the thunder, and being able to bend.

Last night speaking with the eldest, for her it was watching wedding shows on TV, watching pretty young women on the happiest day of their lives walking down the aisle with a beaming, proud poppa on arm.  She got all weepy because of the thought of having nobody to walk her down the aisle.  I assured her that we have a community of people who would jump at the chance to do so.

But still.